Remind me to write a book about all the crap that I’m not supposed to blog about. This would be a 3000 page book, by the way.

I sit here wanting so much to go into full "gripe mode" but I bite my typing-lip. See, you can’t bitch about things like record companies offering you preposterous contracts because then any future company will think "oh, we don’t want to deal with him because he’s trouble"…"how dare he not want to sign our shitty contract that completely fucks him over!"…Basically, you have to act like everything is completely perfect all the time in order to be a non-troublemaker just to get the chance to be screwed by someone else down the road. In this line of work, you get screwed no matter what but the trick is to find the people who screw you the least. [The above is just an example of things you can't write about.]

Karma does not happen in Hollywood as much as I would love that to be the case… if it does, I hardly see it …but when It does, It’s OH SO PRETTY. People say the bad stuff comes back around to haunt you and all the people you’ve stepped on while on the ladder up are the same people who get their sweet revenge when there’s a crash a burn. It sure would be nice if this happened more… but sadly, it doesn’t. If you are an asshole, you will probably be a huge success in no matter what line of work you go into. That "Nice guys finish last" line is pretty dead-on.

If you run into a real "good guy(or gal)" [more so in this town]…then they’ve probably worked VERY HARD and been VERY LUCKY …but chances are they’re just a good actor making everyone think they’re harmless. Me? I guess I’m somewhere in the middle. I’m no angel but I fall more on the lucky side of the coin. For as much crap that comes my way…I do my best to look on the bright side of life and I try to focus on the good [there has been quite a bit of good, I'm grateful for that]. As for me today…I just woke up on the wrong side of the bed.

So what am I not supposed to blog about today? I can’t say…it has nothing to do with anything I’ve blogged about in this post so far though…but let me just say, I probably should not have even blogged this entry as well.