I just looked back at like the last handful of blog entries I’ve written…  HOW ZZZZZZZ!!! LOL… I don’t think I would read my own blog If I didn’t know me…at least not with posts like I’ve been doing. Sure, this whole StarTomorrow contest is exciting and it’s taking up most of my time and thoughts, but I feel like I’ve lost a little personal touch to my blog. Like, I’ve been holding back what I REALLY think about everything.

The reason I started this journal to begin with was so I could write some frustrations out and to document my own “starving artist” life here in Hollywood…and now, I find myself worried that I’m saying too much…or not enough…being too personal…or not personal enough. It’s a little tough sometimes to REALLY open up because I blog under my own name and some things I really do want to keep personal or just for a handful of close friends. It can be tricky. I do think what I need to start doing though …Is open up a little more.

I’ll start with the most eye-popping Holy Cow Moment I’ve had over the last month(maybe lifetime). I’ve blogged about this subject before and anyone who has been reading my blog for a long time, knows that I have these 1/2 brothers/sisters who don’t know I’m their brother. I’m not going to go into the details of all that right now other than to say ….Dear old Dad never told them about me and I’ve been kept as some sort of hidden Love Child for all these years. I’ve been fighting off the urge to contact these siblings and having an Oprah Moment out of respect for my father’s wishes (another long story).

Well….since the start of this StarTomorrow show and when it aired on NBC a while back, my father got wind that I was going to be on it….I’m told he sat around with some of his family and watched. The latest thing I’ve been told is that a brother of mine has been keeping up with the show online and watching and voting for me (just thinking that I’m some sort of friend of the family or something). I’m told he and his wife really like me and the music [probably not enough to be reading my journal, but who knows]. Yesterday(or the day before-I’m losing track of days), my non-knowing-brother actually made a very nice comment about me on the Startomorrow site. I recognized the name and sort of freaked out a little.

Is this a way of my dad wanting to tell his kids about me? I’m not going to hold my breath. Maybe my brother has figured it out? I DO look quite a bit like my father. I don’t know…the whole thing is just a little freaky. One day, I WILL meet these siblings. How will they react to me? I don’t have a clue…but I hope they buy my CD I just know that at least one of them will be saying “Hey aren’t you the guy from that online show?”

Anyway…I hope this entry breaks up my blog from looking like one big StarTomorrow.com Commercial. But I can’t help giving the continuous plugs for the show. This is part of being part on the show…I signed up for this …OH….as always, I still need votes…and if we win this week, I’ll need them next week. It’s Week 11 now and it’s all over on Week 14 (or sooner depending on if we get the votes). As of now…If it all ends tomorrow, It’ll still be good to say that we made it to the Top 12. That sort of thing looks good on the bio. You guys are the ones to thank!