I’m still sick today. I had planned on having tea tonight with friends but waking up at 8am and not feeling any better than yesterday made me cancel plans for tonight. Man this sucks! I’ll try not to gripe too much about that though.

Since I woke up early and had nothing better to do, I looked at a box with old photos and found some funny ones that brought back some fun memories. The one picture that really isn’t such a great photo brought back the most nostalgia.

[I'm the one on the top right grinning ear to ear]

This picture above was snapped at a party at my old drummer’s place. It was a live viewing party for a TV show we were on. They had a projector set up and there were probably about 150 people all jammed into the living room (which explains why i’m standing on top of some sort of table). I only knew a few of the folks…I don’t know where everyone else came from…I’m guessing it was friends of friends. I noticed right around this time was when we started getting all these new people popping up and hanging out at shows. Most of those people vanished when the record deal vanished …funny how that works but it helps to know who your real friends are.

In any case, I was happy for the short-lived attention the show brought. A small taste of fame, leaving me wanting more. The only way I can describe it is…it’s like a drug. Once you’re bitten, you become this sort of vampire hunting out more of it.

I’m learning that if I stick with it, the Merry-Go-Round (if I’m lucky) comes back around but it’s twice as hard to get there again.

I think things came way too easy the 1st time. It was literally a script from some Hollywood movie. I moved to California…started a band…made a CD…at our CD Release Party we were lucky enough to have someone in the audience hand off our CD to an A&R guy …who then put us on this TV show….and then 2 days after shooting…they offered us a recording contract that was pretty dandy. This part of the story ended with the Record Company going under before we had a chance to sign the damn thing but the tornado spinning around us up until this point was a pretty strong one.

The whole ordeal was actually pretty surreal but one of the best times in my life. Funny how one of the best times in my life was followed by the worst. That whole saying of "the harder they fall" is really understated. I’ll skip the story about everything falling apart just as fast as it came together but you get the idea. The good thing about everything crashing and burning just made me realize that if i could pick myself up off the ground after that, I could live through anything

I’m not sure where this post is headed but It’s just thoughts that this picture brings to mind. I just hope that one day I’ll get a notch higher on the ladder of success. Good things have happened since then but so far none have been as exciting as the 1st time. I hope to change that

Well…I guess that’s enough nostalgia for one day eh?

Last night’s American Idol was a shocker… I thought for sure that Gedeon would have stayed on the show a bit longer. Poor Ayla…it was as if she had never failed at anything in her life up until this point. I felt bad for her but I do think the top 6 girls are the correct ones. I wish I could say the same for the top 6 guys. Kevin’s not going to be on the show much longer. He’s a likable underdog but to say he’s a better singer than Gedeon is a joke. Looking forward to next week’s show though.

Well…I should go back to being curled up in a ball on my futon and cocooned with my blanket. Happy Friday!