I just popped on to write a little blog…I look over on my little counter and it says 43 people are online right this moment at 5:48pm[PST]. This MUST be a mistake :"People Online: 43" Not that I’m complaining in the least, but that’s a little scary and cool all at the same time.

I’ve been getting a little paranoid when I see things like that and start wondering what foolish thing I might have written to warrant those 43 people all at the same time…perhaps it’s just the time of day? Or maybe i’m getting some airplay somewhere and someone was nice enough to mention the website? That would be GREAT!

The other day, I was linked to another blogger’s page where the guy mentioned me in a negative way by saying:

"Who’s this Bob Gentry fellow, shouldn’t he be at work or something? Every time I’m on BE[blogexsplosion.com] his site pops up, how many hours are you on there pal?!"

I posted a comment saying:

"Sorry if my blog is always popping up on BE…it’s because I pay for the credits. So the answer is less than 5 minutes a day. [There’s a button on BE that says something like "don’t show me this blog again"…feel free to click that if the site comes up and you're annoyed by it]."

This message above is for anyone else who surfs in from BE who does not want to view the site again.

This fella’s post made me smile and yet feel insulted all at once…it was as if he was insinuating that all I do for 24 hours a day is surf and read blogs in order to get my blog read [that's another way how BE works, for those of you not familiar with it]. I’m starting to wonder if my journal is over-exposed? I think I’m getting a backfire here. Who knows.

On the bright side, getting exposure through these types of sites HAVE brought in more positive feedback than negative so I suppose I can handle a little bit of the flack from others. The main thing I was trying to do was get the music out there for people to hear. I pretty much GIVE AWAY music….people can stream CD quality songs from this site but perhaps that message is getting lost. The hope is that, they like what they hear(or read) and decide to pick up a track or two at iTunes or Napster.

Just in the last few months, I’ve been called everything from narcissistic, ego-maniac, gay-homo, annoying, self-loving, etc…the list goes on. You get the idea. It’s not as though it’s an army of people who say this, just the occasional idiot. I wouldn’t mind so much if I were getting a paycheck of someone like Paris Hilton. All that money has a way of deflecting the bullshit but MY W2’s tell a different story(sorry to say).

Perhaps having my real name in my journal and posting photos of myself have something to do with a few of these type of comments. Funny thing about that is, it’s usually coming from someone who is completely hidden(not that there’s anything wrong with that either). Who knows what the answer is…I know I should ignore, rather than confront, but the bottom line is to anyone wanting a war of the words…this is my journal and I’ll write whatever I want, if you don’t like it…GO FUCK YOURSELF.

I could go on and on here but I’ll stop before I embarrass myself more. To anyone who actually enjoys reading this blog…sorry for putting that out there. It was just something I needed to get off my chest.