I’m taking a Blog-Break.

For over a year I’ve been updating the journal on a daily basis…and yesterday, as I was sitting here thinking "oh, I need to blog" I realized… I DON’T need to blog. I don’t need to do anything.

I do like the whole writing exercise of taking time out of the day and jotting down what I’m thinking even when my mind is blank. The sad truth? I like to write, even if I may not be the best at doing it. God knows, I make enough typos and grammar mistakes.

So what’s this post all about Alfie? Well…what I’m thinking is, that I’m going to cut back on blogging. Perhaps weekly? Maybe I’ll do 4 days in a row …and then nothing for a week. I just don’t know… I’m just going to wing it from now on.

What I do know is that I’m starting to feel an obligation…obsession…addiction to public journaling. Sadly, I stumble through my day and if something strikes me, my immediate thought is "I’m so blogging this tomorrow". My guess is, most bloggers go through this too.

1. Obligation? It seems the more I write, the more the website goes up in rank. I set a goal to get the site under #100,000 at Alexa.com. It’s well exceeded that mark… and as of now, it’s #75,850. [Not too shabby considering I was at like 4 million a few years ago] All this leads me to:
2. Obsession. I am now to the point where I’m a little worried to STOP. So I’ll admit I’m competitive and I like to work for being the best at whatever I do. I doubt many people set out to do something badly, but I get to be borderline compulsive about things. The same goes for playing hockey, tennis..and music. And I’ll be the 1st to admit I have a highly …
3. Addictive personality. So now that I’ve psychoanalyzed myself, I’ve realized that a 12 Step Blogging Program might not be such a bad thing. And so…I’m taking the 1st step by admitting it. The 2nd step for me is to CUT BACK.

I know all this will make the site’s rank fall…and that’s ok. The site counter shows I average about 400 unique visits a day [which doesn't count the people who have the RSS in their newsreaders]…I know that’ll all drop. That too is ok.

Hell…maybe I’ll refocus my energy and just write a book…make a movie…finish the next CD…all of the above.

I hold back quite a bit on the blog anyway and open up much more in music[perhaps it's because I can hide secret meanings in songs]. Someone once emailed me saying that reading my journal was a sort of "Reality TV Blog" and that I expose myself for all to read….but in all seriousness, I try not to talk about anything TOO personal.

So before this entry turns into the never-ending post about nothing. Let me put a cork in it. To be continued…whenever. End of Season 1.

Of course…I might wake up tomorrow and think "what the hell was I posting about yesterday?"   We’ll call that a blogging relapse.