It’s cold here!
Yeah… I’m still in Michigan and I’d forgotten just how cold Winter can be. Of course, it could always be colder but damn, it’s chilly.
My trip hasn’t quite gone the way I’d hoped but I have seen my father and he actually looked pretty good. I found out a little more info on what happened to him. He didn’t have a heart attack…rather, a pretty bad stroke. I’m not sure which is worse.
I popped in and spent some time with him on Monday. It was a nice visit but I realized pretty quickly that he was back to not wanting to say anything to anyone about me. A week ago when he thought he was on his death bed, he was ready to confess to the world and now? Well…let’s just say that I’ve never been more let down. The trip’s not over yet and there’s still time for him to change his mind but I’m not holding my breath.
Yesterday was pretty brutal though. I went back to the hospital to visit with him and one of his other kids was there… I waited in the lobby for 2 hours. When I saw another one of his kids walk right by me, I realized I’d be waiting a long time. I left.
Yes…I know I should have walked in the room with the other kids there but I didn’t. As I said, the trip’s not over but I do have my flight back to CA set for next week. My dad’s operation is set for Feb 5th…I’ll be back home long before then. I would like to be here for the bypass operation but I’m just not going to subject myself to anymore of this bullshit.
It says volumes that you are there for him, even though he’s not there for you.
thanks Don…it’s nice to hear
Bob, I think it would be so neat to find out that I have a brother that I never knew about. If I found out YOU were my brother, I’d be even more excited!
i’m not sure what they’ll all think about me. I don’t expect us to all hang out like a gang or anything but i’m hopeful that maybe 1 of the 5 might want to get to know me–as i’m curious as hell about them
You have no idea what an amazing person you are. To be there for someone when they won’t be there for you–it takes a pretty strong man to do that. I’m proud of you, Bob, and you shouldn’t take this as a loss. You should take it as a victory. Honestly. Look up the road a little. Someday you will be a dad and look at all the things you won’t do, and all the things you will be for your kids that you missed.
Stay strong. It suits you.
i’m not sure about being a dad myself but who knows…i’d like to think i’m a pretty good uncle though
You know you’re 3 nieces at my house LOVE their uncle Bob and you are GREAT with them!
just sorry i didn’t get to spend much time with them this time